I'm severly depressed...and I truly need your help.?

im sorry... this is just too long to read. from what i read it sounds like youre just an underprivileged child that wants more for herself. stay in school, go to college and get a good job so that you and youre future family will never have to live this way. just keep your goals in mind and strive to be the best you can be. you can get out of this if you put your mind to it.